my-awakened-envy replied to your photo:Some days it just feels like everything is caving…

Are you okay?

Not exactly. I actually faced the issue of not being able to get out of bed this morning to go to class and my professor fussed at me. I honestly lied and said my car wasn’t working because it’s easier to have people believe a machine doesn’t work rather than your brain.

I’m just in a bad state of mind at the moment and I’m feeling trapped with no one to turn to or talk to about it. I’m on medicine but it’s only been a couple weeks so the effects aren’t too apparent yet. 

I’m also being bad and beating myself up over this kind of stuff. I feel dumb and like a massive burden on my friends. I’m not eating right either. Almost like I feel like I don’t deserve a decent meal. It’s a sour state of being and college/work only adds onto the stress. 

Then there are things that I know would brighten my mood but I feel selfish for wanting those things. I haven’t done anything to deserve them. I’m being pushy, I tell myself. 

It’s…more or less a vicious cycle. But that is only today. Tomorrow will perhaps be better. My days swing around like this sometimes. It’s just been a while since I’ve had such a low day. This is more or less just a vent post at this point.